No Longer Spectators But Catalysts

“Christians should not be spectators any longer but rather to be catalysts of the society for the better.” A true Christian must live what he believes and to thrive for whom he worships. It added to my learning about the life of Jonathan Edward. He made the best use of what he had for the glory of God. He didn't just sit back and relax on a couch, enjoying a comfortable while other Christians in his time were fighting for their faith. What I have learned from his life was his full devotion to God. He became one of the great philosophical theologians rooted in Reformed theology and one of the forerunners of the age of Protestant missionary expansion in the 19^th century. Jonathan was such a hardworking Christian and what he believes did not just remain in papers but he really showed them through his great works with God's help. A lot of people nowadays are measuring their success in life by the amount of things they acquire which they cannot keep instead of investing their days on earth to impact the world for Christ, the Savior of all men, that can never be lost.

In my 22 years of existence, I truly accepted Jesus Christ as my own personal Lord and Savior when I was 13 years old. During the time that I was still a new convert, I was so very passionate to serve God. But then there were lots of times when many days, months, and years had passed since I became a Christian, I experienced dryness in my spiritual life. Many times I tended to backslide because I just couldn't cope the sufferings I had experienced for being a bearer of the name of Christ. I did able to fought back to my parents at that time and I also went to the opposite way of where God wanted me to go. I could still remember the days when I challenged God if He was really real. I asked too many questions to Him knowing that my mind is too limited to understand His ways. I tried to do things with a minimal dependence on God and sometimes feared and doubted His will for me. Instead of being an agent of change to the world, I became an passive agent of Christ, not fully trusting Him and living for Him. Then one day God had struck me with these sticky statements, “Life is not about you. It's about God.” (from desiringgod.org article) I have realized then that I should not focus on my problems but on my purpose instead. I have to turn the camera lens away from me and face it to God.

Living as a Christian in this hostile world is too difficult. But then I ought to fear God rather than any other else. I have to show to the world that I have a tremendous God, so why live in doubts or fears? I can't but I can with God. I want to pursue God's calling for me and the dreams that He wants me to accomplish on earth. I want to be a cross-cultural missionary and build an international school with a mission agency having an ultimate goal for world evangelization through mobilizing and sending missionaries to both local and international areas where God leads. My dreams may seem impossible to reach but I have no reason to doubt because God will fight for my dreams as long as these are according to His sovereign will. I am willing to be mightily and effectively used by God for the furtherance of His kingdom. To Him be all the glory and praise!!!