I love you, Lord
Though I can't understand
My desire for You is indescribable
Teach me to be more like You
You own my life
So help me God
What should I do?
Where should I go?
How should I live?
My answer to these questions is...
I don't know
Then the Lord help me
He tells me what to do
He instructs me where to go
He teaches me how to live
By then I realize what it is to be a Christian
It is doing what God wants
It is going where He chooses
It is living a life that pleases God
Christianity is to live, move, and have His being
The heart of Christianity is Christ
Without Christ, Christianity is nothing
True Christianity exalts Christ and humbles self
This is the reason I stick to Christianity
I have found something greater than life
Something that is priceless
The priceless love of Christ
Before I found it
I thought that I already know what love really is
Since I became a Christian
Bit by bit, God let me understand
The true meaning of love
Even now, I am still learning
God speaks to me
And everyday He keeps on reminding me that,
"Love is patient and kind
Love does not envy or boast
It is not arrogant or rude
It does not insist on its own way
It is not irritable or resentful
It does not rejoice at wrongdoing
But rejoices with the truth
Love bears all things, believes all things
Hopes all things, endures all things."
Love is a combination of being and doing
There should be a balance of both
The balance of internal and external aspects
Internal means inside which connects to inner love
Love starts within
And overflows on the outside
This is what we called the outer love
Love is to be kept and shared
Love is a word and deed
Love is an expression and action
Love is an impression and compassion
In totality, love comes from God
You can receive His love instantly
With a humble heart to accept it
Yet understanding and experiencing love are not easy
It is a process of dying yet gaining
Because the more you understand love,
The more willing you are to take risks
As you face dangers in a Christian life
The more you experience love
The love in God's presence
The better life you will have
The life that this world cannot offer
The reason why Christian martyrs
Had chosen to die for Christ
Because for them,
"For me to live is Christ, and to die is gain."
Isn't it amazing?
For non-Christians, it's stupidity, isn't it?
I understand them
Because I also had that in mind
Before I accept Christianity
But later on, it becomes clearer to me
The life I have now is not even mine at all
Yet when the desires of my sinful nature kicks in
There my frustration gets in the way
For non-Christians, one mistake done by a Christian
It is completely a big deal
But my response to that is not to condemn them
I pray for them that someday
They will know, understand, and experience God
Though not guaranteed they will understand everything
Even Christians, there are things we still don't understand
Some things still remain a mystery
And our response is just to have faith
That someday God will reveal the things
We have been longing to comprehend
One thing I don't seem to understand
If God is holy,
Why did He let man sin?
If He just stopped man from sinning in the garden of Eden,
There will be no judgement at all
What a perfect world it would be!
Can God's love still be perfect if He judges?
Well, I don't want to dwell on my doubts
It is normal to have some doubts
Because it just means you are thinking critically
It is thinking what you think
It is trying to understand what you believe in
But humanly speaking,
Being a Christian doesn't remove my human nature
That my mind still thinks with certain limitations
There are things that no matter how I try to think about them
Trying to search for answers
But in the end, I am left still confused
With that, I believe God all the more
As He declares in His Word,
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts
Neither are your ways my ways
For as the heavens are higher than the earth
So are my ways higher than your ways
And my thoughts than your thoughts."
This has really hit me hard
I am human, weak, and I need God
The Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit
Three in persons
But one in essence
This is my poem of faith
There are still things I want to express
Thanks for reading this
Some may not respect my beliefs
Some may agree
You are free to accept it or not
I just realize how sharing one's faith
Can make a difference to someone's life
"The grace of the Lord Jesus Christ,
And the love of God,
And the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with you all."
*1 Corinthians 13:4-7, Philippians 1:21, Isaiah 55:8-9, 2 Corinthians 13:14
~ S.M.T.A.
(6/25/17)
